Eyes

I can't describe to you just how random and scattered my mind is right now. I feel I am incapable of a cohesive thought right now. Not much makes sense. It is strange!! I feel lost. I would love to pray about it (and have tried), but my mind bounces from one thing to the next to the next and so on!! I don't know that I have finished a prayer in 2 weeks!! Pitiful.
I wish I could see myself through God's Eyes. Not the sinful, weak, scattered part that I can't seem to get through, but the covered by the blood, unblemished, son that He sees.
For that matter, I wish I could see myself through my Donna's eyes!! If I could be half the man she sees ....
C

Sickness

Ugh!! What a week!! Grif spiked a 103 fever on Tuesday night. The doctors on Wednesday did the test for the swine flu and it was positive. He has been quarantined to his room ever since. He finally is feeling a little better today. Donna has been battling a sinus infection for a couple of weeks, and finally is feeling better after going to the doctor yesterday and getting on antibiotics. Bailey, mimi, and myself are just hoping and praying we don't get either!!
Chicken N' Dumplins and a pound cake will be made tomorrow to take to the Gills, but I probably won't hold the baby, too much risk that I am carrying something!! Anyone who knows me, knows that is going to kill me, but it is best for Kate. :(
I am still working through some post heart attack depression. Things have been bad for a while now. I havn't felt like talking or blogging about it, and still don't, but I probably need to. Donna is the most patient woman in the world. I don't know how or why!! She is just incredible.
Have a great weekend!
C

Perfectly Beautiful Fall Day

A sky so blue, that it almost hurts to look at. Not a cloud in the sky. 71 degree high with virtually zero humidity. What a day!
We had a great weekend with the ball team. Winter Haven Florida was HOT!! 95 degrees to play ball in hurts!! But we made a good showing with a 3 and 2 record and 13th place finish. We didn't play to our potential and that always stinks, but, what are you gonna do? We had a blast and made great memories together.
I havn't blogged in a while. I havn't had much to say. I'll try to correct that soon.
C

Interesting days

The more you know, the more you realize that you don't know.

Have you ever heard that saying? When I was a teenager I thought my parents were dumb. I thought they had no clue of the "real world". The older I have become all of the sudden, they are pretty smart people!! Funny huh? Because the more I begin to know, the more I realize that I have no clue!!

That fact is hitting home with me currently in my walk with God. It feels really strange.
I'm praying more than I ever have; and I know I don't do it enough.
I'm in the bible more than I have ever been; and I know I'm not in it enough.
I'm serving more than I ever have; and I know I'm not serving enough.
The closer I get, the more I know that is available to me that I am not reaching. Not because God isn't offering; on the contrary, it's because I'm insufficient. Tough to feel that, but fact it is.

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I had a great workout today and my 6 month check up is coming up next week.
C

I would like to tell you......

that I pray daily
that I am in my bible daily
that I put my family before myself
that I have everything together
that I am a phenomenal husband
There are many other things I would like to tell you, but they would all be lies as well.
God is still working to perfect me! I pray he will finally have me perfected at the day of Christ. Until then, I pray I grow daily. Instead of the 1 forward, 2 backward approach I have done in the past!!

We had another great weekend!! I thank God for my wife and children that make everyday soooo enjoyable!!
C

SLEEP

It has been an extremely tiring week!! We havn't slept well all week for a variety of reasons, but last night was NICE. I feel rested and relaxed finally.
Bailey has been at Splash Bartow all week, and I am ready for her to come home!! I am also ready to hear her experiences. I hope she had a blast.
I need to get a picture of the garden up here so you can see it. Growing like crazy. We picked two cucumbers yesterday, which is the first of anything we have gotten, but everything is in full bloom! Looking forward to picking more stuff.
Big softball tourney tomorrow. It is the ISA State Championship. It is in Rome, so we don't have to drive far!!
Have a great weekend everyone!!
C

Weekend Events

Friday after work I went to get my hair cut then hurried home, just in time to leave for Rome. We met my nephew John in Rome to eat dinner then he was staying with us for the weekend. We ate a Sumo Japanese!! We came home and played dominos for a couple of hours while we caught up on everything with he and Sarah!! She was at the Merchandise Mart for the weekend with her mom. We missed seeing her!!
Saturday was a softball tourney at Dellinger!! We don't get to play there enough. We didn't do great. A very bad showing compared to how we have been playing. We got home and Lorraine started making chicken n' dumplins!! The rest of us played a little four square.
Sunday School was good. Continuing on the ten commandments. We had some more good discussions. Church was wonderful. Worship set was good and Doug, filling in for Pastor, did a good job!!! We had lunch at grandaddy Austin's house for his 81st birthday!! Chicken casserole, chessy hashbrown casserole, green beans, mmmmm!!!
We went out with Shep and Andrea to Mellow Mushroom (it was good this time!!) and had a great time. I had a great time talking with them. They add a lot of perspective! I was able to hash out some of the stuff rolling around in my mind. They were too. Hopefully I will be able to blog some of my thoughts on the things we talked about soon.
A GREAT WEEKEND!!
C

P.S. A little belated, but good luck to everyone who auditioned for praise team yesterday!!